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LEEweida
Third Febuary
NPCC IS LOVE
Art & Design / Product Design Student
Zi Feng Tang Ginna
~~LYT Company~~
~~JCC Worker~~
Interior Designer / designer of photopages
~~Wei Yi master~~

want to be

happy go lucky
like to be happy
like to be myself
lot of thing to be complate in life
dun like to tell everyones (my story)
but only to those who understand

Aim

i will get it;

~~Be N.T UI~~
~~To get full family photo~~
Go Hongkong
Converse jacket
~~converse bag~~
~~buy DSLR Cam~~
~~pass my 3C car licinse~~
~~drive horda odyesse~~
~~buy my own bike~~
~~buy swatch watch~~
buy black version swatch watch
G2000 clothes
~~buy apple laptop~~
waiting 05 march 2012
~~get her e-mail/msn add~~
meet her for lunch/movie
~~meet her awhile~~
~~cook for her~~
start holding her hand
~~run 10 round ( inner )~~
~~run 15 round ( inner )~~
~~run 10 round ( outer )~~
~~run 20 round ( outer )~~

loves

it's for life;

dark dark chocolate
driving horda odyesse
speeding
badminton
chill crab
rainbow
sunny rain

hates

it's for life;

empty promises
people bluff mi
china chicken

Songs

enjoy them;

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

10:00 AM

Today, mood are good. regina come to school le. although for a few hours and she here to play only.. also good la. cus can see her.. ( silly right ? ) maybe if u are me, u see someones whom u love, she happy u also happy. correct?? but only few certain week left. after than that, who might know right? probably just happy go lucky..

i will try my best to get back as like the past.

left with 133 days.

Monday, July 20, 2009

11:36 AM

Today, early gg school with my injuries leg. it's quite hurt while walking. leave com lap at around 9.15. to yee tee, get my pay from my boss. actually is to meet up hui ling for lunch at clememti, but in the end no. nevermind de la. back to school. then blog. cus nothing to do.. monday only lor, alr so ---- le, how do u think e rest of e week..? hmmm, mr bean, from my class, ask my what room i stay wor. weird right. well, in case anything happen, i have tell all blogger le. lol. ( so u guys know who to look for if my house kanna bomb ) laugh!

last sat, i really do something for bishan ite, IPH. it's a moment that i could proud of ever since e last time was 4 years back. i had never do anything proud moment for my current school. and now, i have did it. even though i had injure my leg, it's worth it, even though all lovely of mine think disagree. i'm still ok lah. lol.
taking part in badminton com. U21. my team won 1st running up :D YEAH!
picture of every moment will be post once i get the picture.

Thing that i said wanna to be plan. i will plan on late sept. ( if worst come to worst, forget abt e planning) see how it goes by then bah.

today, regina most porbably dim come school. well, try luck tml lor. long time dim see her alr.

Forget the time in the clock, past the time in min w/o thinking. Let everything be nautre place, feel more comforable.

left with 134 more days to reach my finish point. I can wait.

Friday, July 17, 2009

3:25 PM

Today, friday le. off day for myself. this is my plan la. last night, go for celebrate. till qiute late. home, been waiting for regina's calls. but hui ling call up.. why her sia ..? anyway, no problem la. atleast got pps call up la. lol.

today, wait up ealry, thing done le. drive to bugis temple then to gin mok. now at mac. with hui ling n landy. ya. laptop. batter low. don intend to continue le. haha. bye.

Thursday, July 16, 2009

9:10 AM

Today, so normal again. no different. regina not here again.. later she gg meet me.. but i don think she will as last min maybe change of her mind..? anw, today, i will leave early also.. but i should admit that today i have not programme untill 8pm. i just wan to avoid sch work. even though this project is alone doing, i will also avoid some part. i knew that my team mate did cover me w something, but i will disappointed them. so i will just do my best out.

For this 2 yrs and more, i realised that of most of my friends 1st, are selfish, only care abt themself in e first place when it's happen to be in danger stage. 2nd, when come to $, be it return nor borrow, it's really hurt friendship. this is like that, w/o $ not talk. so reality. SO!, i telling myswlf this, of more time, "friends only" keep aside, myself, (lovely) come first. human are selfish. can't be blame. as we only got 2 hands, there's endless of helping.. now if i don do thing for myself, then wait till when..? i wiont feel sorry abt it if i did reject to help u. (refering to e bad!)

now gg thomson to take breakfast! porride ? maybe.. haha

tml fri le, good sia. haha. quite happy for this week. on sun, if i'm taking MC, will u catch a movie w me?? cus i also few "sian" of doing work le leii ooooo.. the reason to cover is that the day before i have bmt till late night.. then are like tired, but timing for work have been book le lor.. don know wan to act blur not leii..? but most porbably lah.. lol!

Phone bill gg to be high this time.. siao liao!

There's still 138 more days to go.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

9:53 AM

Today, raining in e early morning 7am. stii go to sch. doing research now, with some drawing. later gotta play psp to kill my time. lunch time maybe having KFC w regina. missed lor. haha.. today have to work, 6pm. abt 3pm leave.. haha, discourt for myself now! coming fri de programme still not yet comfirm leii.. tml no need to work, so should be free bahx: night then no free mah..

now gg reach lunch time, my class.. hais .. still less than half of e student here.. because of raining day??? maybe, maybe not.

as long as u happy, whatsoever thing i do, it's all worth it @.@V

LOL :D

left with 139 days.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

3:17 PM

A moment like this ..

Today, in school. is the most comforable day wor. lol. lunch time stay in com lap. of cus not alone. play psp till 1 .40pm. out for late lunch, till 3 plus. timing for today was fast lor. and see, now alr gg to 5pm. back for lunch le, then psp lor. i think i should bring psp more offen. to kill my time in school. laugh!

do ramdom again.. easy lah. then research for lamp.. of cus got "keng" la, more time playing psp. LOL! not gg to swim after that le.. cus today been so good in sch .. haha.. stay though out for lesson wor, so i must be rewarding myself. everything still ok bah. so far so good, but as day go on .. and on .. just wait and see lor..

i left with 140 days in ITE.

Monday, July 13, 2009

9:52 AM

Today, it's a memories. been "sleeping" for past 3 yrs. ya 3 yrs. 3 yrs de today was my most happiness day. last night went to try my luck again. to regina place hoping for something. but .. nvr. home. jack rang up. then to sara's pub to drank. (near thomson) did drink la.. lol. 2 cups only . . ya la .. 3 cups la (full) i'm still ok de lor. but jack nearly can't take it.. some more then wan to drive me home .. totally bull shit! in e end, call up her bro to drive us back.. along way, kanna road block.. WTF :( kanna sport check. :( some special reason, went to tanling police cetren. make it report.. till 7am than allow us to go.. so suai de lor..

this is e " celebration " that i get ..? actually to celebrate w lovely, but they could be forgotten alr. well, nvr..

explain so much they also don understand, what the point of explain. aunty, do u get what i mean??

i'm so disappointed in myself

it's time to let go..

this would be my last time viewing ite friends 's blog. ya, finally, i have e courage to take them as friends..

141 days left.

Friday, July 10, 2009

8:58 AM

Today, as usual, school. only sleep for 2 hours. really not enough. but i can't sleep leii. probably i'm to hursh to kai wen. i have to control my emoational. i must continue to be hursh. as if i'm not, i will be face problem.

last night, after work. at 11pm. da bao n bike down to regina's there. waitng at her lift there for more than 30 mins did calls her but no answer.. then went back home.. i will try again tonight. saw kai wen at my house downstair, probably waiting for me to tell something. i knew what. but my choose been made. his topice was repeating n repeating again. drank? did drink beer lah.. i just have to said that i'm following my heart when i reply.. unlike past few years. so innocident!

well, since i have the chance to return back, i will cherished it. lovely just wan me to be a good guy :) I WILL!

i not wrong! i will do for my right! kai wen, really think for urself. u keep thinking of others..? wat abt u?? wat abt ting.. ?? u wan to give her e life like that..? see what.. i like lost my girlfriend, and i now trying my best to save, but .. but because of e past..?! i hurt her.. really can't get urself into trouble. (remember my words)

to ching, sometime, u do have ur right n wrong. it's isn't a bad news if u leave him. just like my case. life still carry on and on if there no him/her. be strong. like me! (haha)

just wait.

nothing will come without puting effort .. he/she will know 1 day. this is the step (moment). it's just time that we are puting in.

i'm comfirm. Once my last day in ITE. i will lost myself.
 
still got 144 days more. keep gg, regina..

contact wei da (me) after bi ye ?? i will wait . .

Thursday, July 9, 2009

10:10 AM

Today, My mood are totally good. ya, due to e wheather so good. haha. hope that daily wheather will be like today like that. i felt that what have been said out were cost me feel more comforable. aunty, you are right. let go first. look far.. what your, it's yours. Just wait.. it's fate!

i'm added this on .. no matter how strong are we, we cannot avoid fate. we can choose the way / path that we want, but we can't blame on if there any accident happen. this is ture.

plan given to myself. 1 month of resting before NS.

tired le, rest is the most importance thing :)
 
still got 145 days to end this course - do hope that regina will hang on ..

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

1:49 PM

Today, i should be happy de ? cus i bought my DS to sch. wanna to play with her during lunch time. but end up .. disappointed. i really angry w myself. why am i so love you? and u don even understand why i do so much thing for you..? because i wan u to be good. is that really so hard?? blame me to be so solfhearted! i keep letting u because i still think that i heaven lost hope on you. but look at u today.. so disappointed.. because of pp siting ur place n u hab no fear to stand for ur right? dam silly.

i was told by lovely, to leave you as far as possible. but i have a 50 50 heart. as a result i choose not to leave u. i wan to let u know that u are not alone.. others keep telling me that i'm softhearted.. just because i love u. ask urself this, have u really ever listen to my words? really put in ur effort to do ur stuff? i really don not wat more i can do to help u.. if u don help ur self. daily, i think that why can't we return as like before?? sp sweet of relationalship me had. compare then now.. i know that in ur heart, u might hate me cus i keep naging at u, well, then i will stop. i will make you hate me even more!

to be frank to u, after last day for sch, i really don wan to contact anyone more. cus i think that we are a use of each others. but ur answer for me yesterday, i reach touch! i'm controling my emoational, dim drop down my dear only.. u agree that u will contact me, but now . . just only 1 day later.. u hurt me !

if u wan to quit sch then quit bah. there no point if i tell u to stay yet ur soul is not w u. ( knew u wont quit ) You can do whatever thing u wan and i promise that i wont care abt u alr.

i will leave you to touch e stone, then u realise what i face ..

loss hope '(

i will be hursh and mean from this point onward.

i can take up and let go.

it's was a big big mistaken between me n you
aunty, only u understand.
i'm waiting for time to expose this mi mi

i know u will be reading my blog. i just wan to let u know how i feel the way u treat me.

feeling so much better after i have post this blog!

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

3:47 PM

Today, all thing have done. job have given to each others. ya. got to busy for work.. eh.. even thought, without group work i also busy de la. lol. my time are limit. wat i can do i will do lor. haha. busy busy busy. this time round i'm busy? but i realise that i'm getting far apart w my ex-schoolmate. do they care ? maybe only 1 bah. i can't blame them, as we have our world and place of to be. everyone is e same. ya, agree? we are selfish? agree, can't be balme. we have to look at our rice bowl first wat.. then we can see on whether to help on others not.. right?

anyway, i have decided.

lesson was on till 5pm. was told that i need to do popfolier. {reply} i give up. {reason} lost all detail alr { actually it's still with me} ahhrh .. i do tml lah!

Monday, July 6, 2009

8:57 AM

This few days from 1st to 5th. been taking off for this days. ya. i trying my best to earn back what i have lost, but i can't. well, i'm still can take it! go for bmt training. swimming after that. for e first 2 days. yes. you guys are right! i'm numb myself. no matter of doing wat there, i have no feeling le leii.. i did ask myself how come.. but no answer was giving to me.. i'm keep finding. this few days of hard thinking make me feel more then i do. agree? i'm willing to do but will u?? main point. it's not just that just said out and will understand.. so, rather bomb myself.. i wont wan to add loaded to others from this on.

this morning, i have find out that i only have 148 left with IPH. 148 days is equare to 3 months 28 days. less??

i will agree, on hui ling, ya. i'm avoiding. you are right. but sooner or later i will find my reason to cover. of cus now i can't think of lah. but sooner or later bah..

to be frank, i knew that i will get into trouble sooner or later. but this is wat i choose. i heaven been regrading at all.

even though thing don get well now. but i do believe, it will..

now everything to be are meaningless..

overall, am i too much??