i knew e answer, but why i don no why i wan to spent more time on it. because of dec 25? the answer is so ming xian le. i'm serious, can she tell?? it was a unknow ans to her?? day by day keep gg to e same topic. i'm tired.. can u tell me wan really u wan me to do, then u agree? well, be in my limit, can.

am i really enjoy wat i have now? i keep telling myself to stay happy then those pps who are not.. but am i really happy? is she happy? well, i see her happy n i'll feel happy too. right now i have less time for her already. till to work, event, charlet, oversea.. slowly, day by day, i will forget her? (whereby i don wish to) how much time i w her? god know? i do cherished those time w her lor. how i wish i could call her "lovely". how i wish to hold on her hand (till old) how i wish this, how i wish tt, hais, arggis.. leave this answer to nature bah..
As long as all things tt i do, it's come from e bottom of my heart. consciense are clear.

well, e answer tt took me soon long to consider are out, i've decided to quit this course.

Miss toh..? do u understand my situation?
















Just drop by tt ytd, there's a memories added. wont be name.. yup. first n last le bah. anw. i do enjoy e walk. thanks :)
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It' monday again.. What negative, i will put it aside lah. tt's no point of bringing up again n again. ya, so tiring when return to e same topic. Well, i will let nautre take e process.. so don ask anw more stuff regradless of this.
i'll treat her as belover friends first. so as to give each others more of time to consider out relationship bah. i will also trt my best out. pps, don't ever worry for me in this situation euhh.. i will never regret what i did, but i will regret what i have not done. it's for life. dontb ever leave life volume in low, black nor white. put in effort to make it colourful n meaningful.

Heaven get back my phone. I think my phone must be hurt alot. LOL! maybe it (handphone) also got feeling? i must be hurt lovely lot (her) tt's why my (phone) gotta hurt. well well, i use e normal heart to mansure it. i should let her go n be by her side, she needa learn how to grow up. in others words, i

Thursday take back my phone, instead of last wk.. this time round don know wheather will kanna bomb not lor.. laugh!!!!! all right, i missed my phone lot lot. somemore, everything things ahead are well plan. i dont wish to meet any accient wor ( i sure it will happen ) as to change detail or information. sohow i think tt day went by so fast, cus right now, i faced next yr project le. but where i will be at next yr?? can lovely tell me a CONFIDENT answer???

well, plan have been make, so i will just follow as it is. pps, pary for me can. THANKS in advance!!!! i don't know why either, the few days i was so emo? this is wat miss toh told me.. hmmm, make be keep planing of stuff, sohrt of manpower. officer n woring stuff. plan give for next yr stuff?? wah.. tt all lot .. i don't know how long more i can go for it till, i realy need a rest/break. when can i stop doing this? n listen to all those bullshit reason.
hope everything end soon.. !

i've just relised tt i'm no loger belong to this world, this group, this team, this town. i've lost everything in this second.. ya, everything!

bb!!!!
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想笑 来伪装掉下的眼泪 点点头 承认自己会怕黑我只求 能借一点的时间来陪 你却连同情都不给想哭 来试探自己麻痹了没 全世界 好象只有我疲惫无所谓 反正难过就敷衍走一回 但愿绝望和无奈远走高飞天灰灰 会不会 让我忘了你是谁夜越黑 梦违背 难追难回味我的世界将被摧毁 也许事与愿违累不累 睡不睡 单影无人相依偎夜越黑 梦违背 有谁肯安慰我的世界将被摧毁 或许颓废也是另一种美天灰灰 会不会 让我入睡 夜越黑 梦违背 有谁安慰











Today, don't intent to come blog. but i still do so. boring bah. ya, indeed it is.. was thinking still got how many days to ends everything.. laugh. well well, end soon liao. everythinggot to be end. yup. not worry at all.. i'm quite fail in some personal stuff? how come? well, nature take place bah.

those pps tt promised me some stuff.. in mid jan.. i think u guys forgotten it le lor.. as usual, i wont blame u. just that i will also forget u.

thanks to miss toh for e days being.. chatting w her again lah.. err, even thought she too LS.. but her point was right, i'll take note it.. but no promise tt will have any result all right.

I decide to let go because i dont want e both of ue to get hurt in any second. I know it hursh but this is e only way tt i mean each other well. cus to be frank, i also can be that there is any mircles around us.. hmmm. stay e same better lah..

later gotta go take my phone .. cool.. waiting v long liao le.. once again, thanks to miss toh euhh..

tml working for full.
sun gotta event, everyones can join me also..

Got to go le. BB Lovely!





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i told them tt return for meeting after supper, should b 1.30. waited till 2+ lor.

some of e thinking question killed my time. although it hurt, but i have get well prepare already.. so, i will take it as it is. everything i plan ahead (some personal stuff) i doubt i'll be disappointed. well, just waiting for mircles.. some 1 wanna continue to play till e age of 20. isn't it tt right now is time to change? but then i can't see any improvement.. so i bet, she wont change by then. so i'll really then reconsider our relationship.. yup..

to be frank, i dim love her but i missed her now.. i doubt this only for a period of timing, i'll be fine soon euhh.. cus.. wei da leii.. you think who sia.. LOL!!!

right now, nothing others then lovely n my perfroment come first.. other then that, err, just put it a side first lah (pps, don't mention) sound eom.. ? give me some days to recover n get back on line. yup. you know.. things gotta happened n it will, we hardly avoid, right now, i just want each others to cool down for some days.. ya, it's e right timing..? cus gg to holiday le.. but then it's painful too. cus we can't meet up daily anymore till next yr, n i think tt our "relationship will go plain" slowly, i will forget you..


i still love u as fren..
no matter how u treat this fren..
as long as u remember me, im thankful..
if we gonna remain as this kind of fren...
nothing i can do.. cos u dun wanna do anything to it..
this is fate. this is reality..
and reality..
is cruel..


<br /> 越爱越难过??
说 说你为什麼
为什麼要走
说你为何要分手
别拖 求你别软弱
求你说出口
分手的理由
但你却(还）
拖 拖 拖 拖到什麼时候
如果要走却又为何停留
请你别 拖 拖 拖
大声的说出口
请你要痛就痛给我个快活
如果说你要走
我不会留 我不去管以后
然后我们说清楚
一句话就够
如果说你要走
我不会留 我不去管以后
多麼痛 多麼的难过
别越爱越难过
然后连话都不说
继续沉默
连朋友都没得做
为了什麼
然后跟别人说你其实还是爱我
就算了吧 坏人我来作

我舍不得,最后一次抱紧你了
我们错过的,错了就错了,不用担心我
我不爱你了,至少你记忆里的我是微笑的
亲爱的,有你牵著我的那些日子
真的好快乐.

Thx to miss toh, for her help n e chat in e canteen.. hmmm, fully explain to her le bah.. ya ya. as she siad, this might be our last yr seeing each other alr. some how wanna i owe her lot lot..

i wont used e words "maybe" or "probably" i will used it words as it is. ya. I'm totally lazy w PD. i wan to end it soon.. but i somehow just missed.. sound moodly right.. dont be sad k. as wat miss toh said.. we'll meet again.. well,well, listen will do lah..

tt all for today.













虽然是简单的形容
虽然是重复的动作
因为有你
让一切都变成不平凡
好想缝合你我手心
就这样牵着不开
有你陪伴
呼吸着有你的空气
就是幸福
i amo te quiero
每一天都要爱上你
想着你沉入梦境一张眼一清醒
第一个想到又是你
sa la he and i love you
我每天都要爱上你
少一天就会遗憾
陪着你的光阴
怎样都不算蹉跎

好想缝合你我手心
就这样牵着不开
有你陪伴
呼吸着有你的空气
就是幸福
ti amo te quiero
每一天都要爱上你
想着你沉入梦境一张眼一清醒
第一个想到又是你
sa la he and i love you
我每天都要爱上你
少一天就会遗憾
陪着你的光阴
怎样都不算蹉跎

陪着你的光阴
怎样都不算蹉跎
永远都觉

This song was so perfect, currently it's suit for ting n ong. ya. jia you hor..

we walk till so far, it's really depent on our fact.. ya, but then when it have come to e end.. it really have to be end. as i have said.. i did cherish them.. so i wont be regret it.. so i wan to tell u guys tt really have too cherish wat u all have. if god drop wishes for u, do use both hand to catch it. dont ever let it drop on e ground. in others words, chances given and tt it. never will it be back as it is.

regrading abt me n lovely.. a answer still heaven give, can i still wait? my time are numbers?? hardly to said de mah.. all right lah, i try my best to complet it. to her only, i'm serious in her n i'm waiting for 25 dec 08. hopefully she wont bomb me. oh, err, for a negative ans tt she give, i dun wish to blog it out. "Tom, dick, harry" wanna know then ask personally lor.

pps.. please read can..!!!! my blog lah.. for e detail of timing.. my off day or sth.. ya.. cus there are lot of pps keep calling ask over n over again when is wat when is tt . . just read can.

i'll post weekly timetable up.. (hopefully lovely read too)

injured my legs again.. go to go home rest le.. now in lesson 2pm. yup, gtg!!!! bye pps.

pls read all right, LOVE YOU GUYS LOT LOT =D





Somehow, maybe she right.. sometime things got to be don't know and it's really have to.. so as i said, i wont force for an answer.. just tt i will wait? regradless how much time i have i'm not sure lah. maybe we only have e fate to meet up but don have enough fate to be together.. ya. think tt, err.. no point of forcing e answer euhh. well, wat can i say?? god will bah??? let the nature take place bah.. somehow, god like playing w me around.. but why me?? why tt's me??? (cry,cry) the feeling right now was really not good, i hate it!!!! but i have to cool myself down.. in order to carry my plan.. go on wei da.. cus u can do it!!! can i ???

miss toh?? my words too harsh? but i have not choice, i don't wan others to mistaken u like tt.. i knew u wont mind but e feeling tt they as was hurt to you.. i'm differrent, cus i no longer have feeling anymore. in other words i'm "ma bi" le. somehow i think tt i'm use to it to be alone.. so regradless of doing anything, i just put in effort will do, past nor fail, no longer important. As long as i really enjoy/cherished e process we spent.. tt really a memories i have between you n i.

sian!!! :( handphone/computer under repair, pps, wat happened to me??? why out of a sudden things can't done soomthly.. why??? did i done anything wrong? is this a punish???

timetable for e whole month (dec) are out. will be post week by week. yup. pps pls check it out. if anything gotta be last min, pls don't all right.. pls tell me a few days ahead if there is any programme, thanks you guys so much.

#1-分手後不可以做朋友，因為彼此傷害過；不可以做敵人，因為彼此深愛過。所以我們變成了最熟悉的陌生人。 我真的愛你，閉上眼，以為我能忘記，但流下的眼淚，卻沒有騙到自己…

#2-回家的路上我哭了，眼淚再一次崩潰了。無能為力這樣走著，再也不敢驕傲奢求了。我還能夠說些甚麼，我還能夠做些甚麼？我好希望你會聽見，因為愛你我讓你走了…

#3-我真的愛你，閉上眼，以為我能忘記，但流下的眼淚，卻沒有騙到自己…

#4-當眼淚流下來，才知道，分開也是另一種明白。

#5-.你走的那天，我決定不掉淚，迎著風撐著眼簾用力不眨眼。

#6-你走了，帶著我全部的愛走了，只是一句分手。我忍著眼淚看著你的背影，好想最後再抱你一次，好想再對你說一次“我愛你”。

#7-有時，愛也是種傷害。殘忍的人，選擇傷害別人；善良的人，選擇傷害自己。

#8-.人生最遺憾的，莫過於，輕易地放棄了不該放棄的，固執地，堅持了不該堅持的…

#9-如果愛上，就不要輕易放過機會。莽撞，可能使你後悔一陣子；怯懦，卻可能使你後悔一輩子。

#10-有些失去是注定的，有些緣分是永遠不會有結果的。愛一個人不一定會擁有，擁有一個人就一定要好好去愛她。

#11-戀愛，在感情上，當你想征服對方的時候，實際上已經在一定程度上被對方征服了。首先是對方對你的吸引，然後才是你征服對方的欲望。

#12-我放下了尊嚴，放下了個性，放下了固執，都只是因為放不下你。





























































today, return home after work (4am.) the night b4 was happy chatting w R. i should said tt her reply have built up my whole day.. on e 14/11. ya, chat till my phone no batt lor. but then i wating for her ans la.. so ya, gotta wait lor. but i dun no can i still wan for long leii.. cus, u know,by waiting.. i will rather u kill me up.. but then i will wait bah, till the next 1 is there.

dim sleep at all, went back home, then went to thomson for breaksfast. then to BSSH for "training" thx to all my pal.. till 12pm. went for lunch. till return jail... feeling so sleeping lor.. but i did do sth out, as i promise my jt de lor. of cus w e help of miss toh. thanks euhh :)

holiday coming, yeah!!! been planing right now,ya, will post out soon.. quite busy ahead.. pps, if any programme wanna me to help/take part. pls let me know 1 week in advance. thanks.

most of e project are done, am i tt busy till tt i heaven even tell lovely regradiing my plan? am i advoiding?? i keep finding reason for myself.. i'm wrong, most probably euhh. but i'll tell lovely soon lah. i wont wan to avoid again, cus, it's boring to think off silly reason day by day..

why happy moment come so fast n move so fast, can't it don't take away.. i will missed them all. (button of my heart) today friday le, 1 more wk to go.. then end this jail le. so how gotta miss my jailmate (cry) (cry) jailmate who read this, pls don cry all right.. should happy for me, cus i have plan wat i wan ahead. although there are pp who daily hurt/bomb/scold me??, but still i take u guys as friends.. have to said tt there are still so warm on it.. ya, add on.. i did cherished e memerious we have, it's enough already. THANKS PPS!!!! pray for you guys man!!!!














Today, feeling so good tt i have let go of everything, never will i take abt her again. cus it's ended. well, feeling tt my heartbeat are return back to me, tt was totally great n i'm looking forward to.

hmmm, come cross the news report n i think it's funny, so i wanna share w everyones.. so . . pps, pla laugh when u think it funny.. LOL!!!

start now

As everyones know ERP have been started in on going process euhh. whereby many driver hate it alot alot.. cus ERP stand for Every Road Pay
( the correct 1 should be stand for Electronic Road Pricing ) right now, it's also stand for Economic Rice Pricing (ERP) funny?? hey.. really tt are this place lor..
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some pp ask why? behind my back.. all right i will let all of u guys know e ans right now. here my plan goes.. i continue as wat my plan gg on. . i'll continue to my Wei Yi.. follow by music stuff.. thx wendy, i have make a ans and this is by my own, and even if i fail.. i wont blame anyone.. thx for all ur encouragment.. after all, it's me and my choice.. so if lovely got to blame me up, i wont take it as it is. somehow i think tt this world no longer belong to me anymore.. i just wan to be back to my own town.. is it all right?? sound moodly?? ya, indeed. but pls dont pity me k..

in jail, total so boring.. but still i need to carry on? 1 more yr to goes wor.. well, a comfirm ans have been make by me.. ( ask personally if pp who wan to know ) hopefully lovely stand at my point to view it. part of my thing are done, w good result.. LOL!! hmmm, last worry le bah.. but then still got some on coming up.. should be able to make it in time.

you know, sometime i do ask around, am i doing e right things?? and will i be regreting if i do so.. (which i told myself not to) to others view, they think i'm wrong, n i'm in 50 50 situation lor.. can everyones of my lovely tell me wat should i do tell correct??
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regarding a latest news tt i have another sis?? yup, u see, i dim heaven put her name in my blog.. n some negative turn up? i'm still considering abt it? maybe bah. no offen all right?

if things can talk in e correct manner, it's solve easily. if it's e others way round.. do u think i will still talk to u?? NO WAY MAN!!!!

tt all for today bah.













am i doing this or just myself? maybe bah, or maybe u guys can think it this way round, wont be blame.ya, to be frank, i really don know am i wrong? wrong?? cus i just thinking of myself? sorry if i have a selfish mind set. i just wan to do wat i wan, CUS IT's ME!!!! you cant stop me (even lovely)

It's should be a moment tt i can enjoy whereby others think it bitterless, but i've got this feeling tt same with them lor. many project coming ahead, jail n town. i have need to complate everything dec 1. have to give wendy a ans by them.. if i can't, not really tt life ended lah, just tt hope/wishes are dead.. well, can any1 pray for me??

there are pps who mistaken me, well, if they can stop it, tt will be better of cus/ but if they don't.. then utu lor, CUS IT'S them wat. i hardly can control them.. right..? i will take it as i'm numb (even though i'm use to it) cus i cant let it go??

for e past few days, due to personal reason, can't entred home.. ya, missed home n lovely. think alot at that moment.. tt was e only time i really spent and think for myself.. a ans will be given sooner or later.. as long as my conscience is clean, i'll continue to do it my way.
sorry guys.. pls dont put any hope on me (for music) or maybe others..

this comment are specially to miss toh, by spending few second to make friends it's nothing, few second to start in a relationship it's bu ke ne de lor.. cus it's really need many (zillion) second to find it. so don understand why miss toh keep think tt way.. pls don be kid as their thinking is this way.. i'm sure u are old enough, to think wat is right n wrongDon't mistaken can?? can?? thx u so much if u understand my point..

picture will be post later..

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大家都在追求幸福快乐，到底什么才是幸福、快乐呢？
我们所接触到的人与事塑造了我们对 “幸福、快乐“ 的定义，也使我们不断根据这所谓的”完美“来寻找自己的”幸福、快乐“。我想，我又怎么知道我所追求的 ”幸福、快乐“ 真的会让我幸福、快乐呢？那是不是一种虚幻的完美主义？又或许那是个能够符合身边朋友的”幸福、快乐“却不一定就是适合我的概念？
真的很复杂哦！

this week gotta end soon, yup, so fast hor. felt tt i dim do anything much then end of this week liao. hahas, thinking back for e past few days..

on 30/10 thurs - as usual, work.. oh, i have to thanks R, for buying cup noodles for us euhh.. thx euhh. quite touch all right.. LOL. but not tt much lah.. =D

31/10 fri - same thing but during lunch time, we have chicken rice. well, should said, It's nice. haha, blogger, should go try lor.. find me for more detail if u guys wan.. having PC after tt, quite boring.. but i'm still holding to it lor.. no matter wat, i 'll still wan my pp to be good de lor! pls kada forget me if i have a selfish ideas.. yup, everything ending at abt nearly 12am. Coffee n cup noodles was my supper then.. (sound bitterless) home after then..


1/11 sat - MEETING. from ZFT. regarding abt next week big day stuff.. time table will be show later. oh well, due to not enough chair, so of e guys stand thought out e whole meeting.. (including me lah) yup. it was abt 2 hours lor. but i still can make it lah. so not worry for me.. everything was plan n i'm looking forward to e day come.. sorry to my lesson, i wont be able to make it.. n if just because of this 2 day n i have to face a cost price of debah..? just so be it lah.. i wont give up e big days anw.. hopefully lovely understand this..
meeting ended.. home.. gg orh orh.. R called up n chat, thx for her called anw. time have been cherished n add into memerious.. hope tt there's still got chance to chat w her lah :)

2/11 sun - morning shift.. poor me.. still okay for me lor.. 9am-5pm. finally gotta e pay, hahas! cheer for me all right.. LOL!

all right, time table for next week . .eh it's tml lah

3/11 mon - entre morning lesson, then bb le lah ..
4/11 tue - will return late, miss CCA.
5/11 wed - will return late also.
6/11 thurs - CMI
7/11 fri - CMI too
8/11 sat - Busy
9/11 sun - Busy

pps, if i dim pick up ur call, i probably be v busy w stuff.

我在这里计算终点的距离下
一站有没有更期待的结局
眼闭上眼看不看得见过去
看不看得见原来那个你
和幸福的关系
路太弯梦在转
错过的人已不在
以为我能习惯
一个人安全感
路太弯爱在转
明知忘记会很难
我一路上跌跌撞撞
却找不回拥抱的形状

眼闭上眼看不看得见过去
看不看得见原来那个你
和幸福的关系
路太弯梦在转
错过的人已不在
以为我能习惯
一个人安全感
路太弯爱在转
明知忘记会很难
我一路上跌跌撞撞
却找不回拥抱的形状
付出过是不是就换得希望
呼吸太乱世界太宽
缘分毕竟太短
路太弯梦在转
错过的人已不在
以为我能习惯
一个人安全感
路太弯爱在转
明知忘记会很难
我一路上跌跌撞撞
却找不回拥抱的形状
我一路上跌跌撞撞
却找不回拥抱的形状

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Li ying
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We Are Friends
zien
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